I am not going to participate in the WoW anymore...I'm out of jokes...just kidding! I just think I am hard enough on myself, knowing all my failings, I don't need to share that part of my life with the world. I have stayed the same not gained any, but not lost any either. I have not met my goal of exercising 3x this week, knowing for weight loss, I'd need to at least exercise 5x/week. This WoW thing has caused me to pause these past couple weeks though. Pause and think about the disorder in my life. I DO believe God is a God of order. I DO believe He wants us to be orderly.
"since he is not the God of disorder but of peace." -1 Corinthians 14:33
"There is an appointed time for everything, and a time for every affair under the heavens. A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to uproot the plant. A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to tear down, and a time to build. A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance. A time to scatter stones, and a time to gather them; a time to embrace, and a time to be far from embraces. A time to see, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away. A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to be silent, and a time to speak. A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace. What advantage has the worker from his toil? I have considered the task which God has appointed for men to be busied about. He has made everything appropriate to its time, and has put the timeless into their hearts, without men's ever discovering, from beginning to end, the work which God has done."
I go to bed late, get up late, I have no particular time to do either. I Do get everything done, amazingly, but always feel rushed and not at peace with all I do have to do each day. Because it is not orderly. I am always rushing to wherever we have to go, always late, always in a hurry. Because my life is not orderly. I don't want my children to grow up having that rush and panic feeling every time they have to go somewhere. I have noticed the first thing they say when getting into the van is "Are we going to be late?" They are too young to worry about that. I am causing this worry, this anxiety at their young age, because of my disorder.
This morning I ordered M.O.T.H. Managers of Their Homes. It is similar to Holly Pierlot's book A Mother's Rule of Life only it gives many examples of schedules. It gives (for me) a clearer way of making it my own schedule. My friend, Sarah, introduced it to me last Summer, but we were selling our home and getting ready to move and a schedule was far from my mind, so it never got ordered. She loves it. She has her own schedule and it works for her. I need to find my schedule, my order. (This book is not Catholic, but you can fill in your prayers in their "devotion" time)
After ordering this book, (finally) I read Jessica's blog post today and she led me to 2 Excellent posts by Elizabeth Foss on exactly what I've been struggling with! (not the mess, just the disorder of what I do when) I know these posts are kind of lengthy, but they are well worth the read! Thank you Regina for hosting WoW and helping me to pause, to find what needs to change in my life.