Tomorrow I go in for my 20 week ultrasound. It's a level 2, which means it is with a Perinatologist,
who will count every heart valve and count every toe and finger, measure the amount of space between the baby's mouth and nose, and just about everything that can be measured, including amniotic fluid, where the placenta is located (hopefully not attached to my scar tissue, after 5 C-sections) and then
make recommendations to my OB as to when and how often my non-stress tests should start, and when and how many ultrasounds should also be scheduled. Within a couple weeks, I will have about 40 appointments
scheduled leading up to the C-section itself, which will probably be on January 5th.
Being a Type I Diabetic, I should be used to this, right? Well...I'm so nervous. I could cry but I don't have time to cry. We are not finding out the sex of the baby this time, so I am feeling even more nervous, just to find out if the baby is safe. So far, every time I go in to the doctor (I go 2x/month now) the doctor says I have a very active baby, just yesterday, the heart rate was down to 154....could be a boy! Could be a girl!!
I'm trying not to panic about all the appointments and trying to fit them all in with trying to homeschool 4 kiddos. I will be at the clinic for 3, and sometimes 4 appointments per week, starting in about a month or so, til the end. I'm happy to do what I need to do to have a healthy baby, I am just feeling a little overwhelmed.
Praying for peace of heart. Trying to take it all in stride. I've done this before. This should be easy, right?
I always worry about this little sweet baby in my womb from the moment I find out I'm pregnant til I deliver and have that baby home. Then, it's a different kind of worry. Having a little brother that was born with heart defects and had major surgeries and then died after only being home a week, I just know how hard that is and worry each time something like that will happen to me too. I know all these fears and worries come from the devil himself. He wants me to have that unrest. He wants me to have no peace.
Praying for peace of heart.
Will you pray for me too?
Thank you so very much!
I am praying for you- God is faithful! I love that how nowadays we can see so much and know so much about the baby even before they are born, and yet God has known every part of us all along. You will do great!
ReplyDeleteI'll pray for you - and you can do the same for me. ;) Though I am very fortunate to have typical pregnancies (except my first where I ended up with pre-eclampsia) but the worry is always there. Peace be with you.
ReplyDeleteJamie, Here is my plan: I'll pray with you til the delivery of this sweet little blessing, then pray in thanksgiving with you that all your worries were for naught!
ReplyDeleteTry to enjoy each and every little bump from the womb, and all the peaceful moments too. (I so very much miss growing a little person...)
God is so good - everything will be exactly as He designs.
Love and blessing to you~
You know you've been on my prayer list and I'll keep you there throughout!
ReplyDeleteI never know how you can handle all of those appointments...you are wonder woman!! I'll keep praying that you have the strength and grace to keep plugging along and working it all out.
Enjoy the views of baby tomorrow!! I'll get another look at mine in a week and a half again. After having several ultrasounds so early on, I'm starting to go thru withdrawl from seeing little one :) Feeling the movements though, that always helps too.
Keeping up the prayers for you and baby!!
I am praying for you!
ReplyDeleteOf course we will Jamie and like Shelly said it is amazing how much we can know about the baby long before birth. You are such a good mother that I am sure beyond any doubt that all will be ok. Just about every one of my friends has something that needs prayer but then we have an awesome God that can take care of it all.
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Thank you all so much. I told my husband tonite that I was nervous, he said "what for?" "God is in charge of all that"
ReplyDeleteI know that, I just need to pray for that PEACE of heart!
Jamie Jo we will be praying for you here in AZ. For you to have a healthy baby, peace of mind, strength to do everything, patience for all the appointments and of course a healthy delivery. AND.... love what your husband said. Sounds like something my husband would say. And you are right all the worries come from the evil one so we have to keep focused on God even more during these times. God Bless! I am so excited to see if you will have a boy! But as long as the baby is healthy. :)
ReplyDeleteJamie, we have been praying for you and your little one every night. I understand you completely. After 5 natural births, 3 c-sections (the last one with complete placenta previa) and one horrific miscarriage I can say that the "what ifs" can wreck havoc on a momma's nerves. God bless you and grant you His peace.
ReplyDeletePrayers for you, sweet Jamie!
ReplyDeleteWe have 9 children on earth and two in heaven. I have found that for me the worries get stronger each time. I think it is because with each prenancy I have learned how many more things can go wrong. Our last one we lost around 12 weeks gestation. That was 2 years ago and I am still overwhelmed with the thought of another one. What I think we should get from all the stories of what can go wrong is how involved God is the entire time, with each one. I forget that often. No matter what happens andno matter how long you get this child on earth remember that they are really loved more by the Father than we as mom's ever could.
ReplyDeleteYou and baby with a very healthy outcome will be in my prayers. God Bless you all.
It's a great day to have these tests done - Birth of the Virgin Mary. I will pray.
ReplyDeleteabsolutely praying for you, with love!
ReplyDeleteGOSH..you are so blessed with a wonderful husband and so many souls out there thinking and praying for you.
ReplyDeleteI KNOW YOU and you give so much love to your family. You are one of the best mamas evah. Your faith and love for your children is so evident from this bloggy.
Just no more broken bones or lice and we should be good!
When I was in the hospital on bedrest with the last baby, I worried so much because I felt like my biggest fears had become a reality (I was gone for almost two months and literally did not see my kids). However, it was AMAZING how God moved in my life. A priest came to my room at least 3 to 4 times a week to bring me Holy Communion, spiritual direction, and the graces I needed to just grow that baby. My kids did well (even though we did have to stop homeschooling for a bit), and now we have our little Hobbit running around tearing up the joint. I am so proud of you for being so open to life despite the circumstances. I heard a great quote once that said, "Courage is fear that has said it's prayers". :-)
ReplyDeleteI'll add you to my daily DM chaplet!
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