We got to Mass, sat in "our" pew, (the front row) and as I knelt to pray I smiled as I looked at Ballerina Rosie and Jedi. They looked so happy and content. I was able to spend "mommy time" with both of them this weekend. (time alone with just me) In this moment, I am thinking they've gotten what they need. (this week) Sigh of happiness comes over me. We went to Confession and Adoration just yesterday, I'm feeling so happy and pure. Until...Mary and Babycakes start in with the "getting progressively worse Sunday Mass time" or the "just how naughty do we have to be until she takes us out? time". Crying, yelling/high pitch screams, wanting everything the other has. We have rosaries and prayer cards (the plastic coated ones on a ring), and Mass books. (special books we bring only for Mass) It is supposed to be perfectly timed out. First books, rosaries and prayer cards, then move onto pretzels. (Yes, we do snacks during Mass for the 3 and unders. Whatever works or in this case doesn't work. Please Please don't start a debate on snacks or no snacks, we've done both ways and I'm not changing my mind:) Then water or water w/a little juice and hopefully by this time it is during the consecration if the plan is working and we can make it to the end...unless there are a lot of announcements. The main goal is to make it through Mass w/o leaving and standing the back with a 26 lb one year old and a crying 3 year old saying "I want to go home! I don't like to go to church!" How embarrassing.
Today I was in tears by the consecration and again at the closing song "Amazing Grace". Not because of the song either.
What a failure I am. Why are my littles such stinkers? I am drenched in sweat all through Mass. You know I try to cherish every age, but on Sundays it's hard to like that age. They are like this anywhere they are confined. Like in a grocery cart...another story for another time!
Next week, my husband and I are splitting up and going to different Masses, leaving the littles home. He will take 7:30am and I will take 10:30 Mass and we will all be much happier.
On a happier note, my husband and I DID receive graces and so did our little stinkers!
Thank you God for Sean and Julie the wonderful people who always sit behind us, or I guess, we sit in front of them...but thank You for them, Julie always helps in whatever way she can and it got us up through the consecration today!