A Few Things Before My Thankful Post!

 Well, I've been officially exclusively pumping for over 13 months now!

I am down to one pumping per day

(I'm pumping right now)

I try to do it in the middle of the night

It has been hard in more ways than one!

It's the emotional part that I didn't expect

I hate pumping.

At least I thought I did.

I've been so sad about it

about quitting.

I'm nourishing my baby

I'm giving him the best I can

It's hard to stop.

Yes, I have a  couple months worth (tops) in the freezer

I've been trying to get Simeon used to whole milk, 

he doesn't like it.

I've been mixing it with the breastmilk

to get him used to the new taste and texture

He's very much like my 2nd child,

A busy body!

 The "awake" bottles,

 I think he's growing out of

he's more interested in playing, 

so he sips, and sits up sips and sits up

laughs, kicks his feet, and slowly slides off my lap

 while I'm trying to give him the bottle!

I'm always sad when I do the final weaning from breastfeeding, 

and am surprised to be feeling the same way about pumping.

 There have been good things though

I've been able to read again

(for 2 minutes and 5 seconds)

Before the kids found me....

(yes, I wear ol' lady glasses to read, it's better than squinting!)

 Little Stinker!

My kids are weird.

She has always loved my hair...she rubs it on her lips, on her cheeks,

her whole face and her tummy and even tries to rub it on her feet!! 

That's when I say "No feet!"

She says she likes how it feels.

My 6 year old has a thing for hair too, 

but she likes how it smells and feels

and she only likes to rub it on her face. 

 I've had more time to make good breakfasts again!  

Muffin Mondays

Toast Tuesdays (cinnamon toast or toaster strudels)

Waffle Wednesdays

Pancake Thursdays (I couldn't find anything that starts with "th")

French Toast Fridays

Smoothie Saturdays

I've had a lot more time doing pretty much everything!

Our lives were totally scheduled around when I was pumping

So weaning is a good thing.

I'll get there....

 My "mom tips" are these:

1.

Cut off those feet pajamas, it makes them last longer and it's great for your "hot" kids

I have mostly hot kids, they get hot easy (even in MN)

2.

Use baby bottles with lids for water bottles for your younger kiddos

Works great, they're sturdy and they are not too heavy even for your purse!

I wrote about abortion yesterday

and have still been thinking about it

and

I'm trying to be compassionate towards the mothers who have aborted

and the ones that are pro-abortion

But 

It's hard.

It's hard to be merciful when one mother thinks it's OK to kill 

her baby because of a birth defect at 35 weeks along,

while I gave birth to my first baby at 35 weeks along.

And I gave birth to my last at 36 weeks along.

and the one before the last one, at 37 weeks along.

It's hard to be merciful when there are mothers out there 

like this one HERE

Who has so  much  love in  her heart because of her daughter

Is life hard for her?  

Yes.

But is it full of love?

Yes.

Is she doing God's will?

Yes.

What makes me mad is that people used to not KNOW that it was a baby

They were misinformed

They didn't understand what they were doing.

NOT ANYMORE!

If you go HERE

and click on "Blog for Choice Day" 

You can read their sick to my stomach stories

I really think that like Mother Teresa said in the quote above,

the mother is only solving her own problems.

That mother I wrote about yesterday 

killing her baby to (in her mind) save her baby,

is a crock!

It's a cop-out!

She didn't want her life to be any different,

Because if you have a baby with a birth defect, 

your life will change

your life will change

your life will change

Your life will change!!!

These women know it's a baby!

And they still kill the babies!!!!!!

Because they can.

And this mother who killed her baby at 35 weeks, gets the 

pity attention, the "Oh, I'm so sorry" "That must be so hard for you"

What about your baby?  

It was harder being ripped out of your womb, 

and then just before her head was out, 

pierced in the back of the neck, 

to make sure she was dead at delivery.       

I'm mad

but I'm still praying and still trying to be compassionate

by praying

BUT

We also have to call it like it is

It is murder.

OK, I'll get off my soapbox.

           

40 years

 Today my heart and thoughts go out to all the victims of abortion

Not just the babies that were killed

but to the mamas

who killed them

The pain they feel, forever now.

"Woe to these who call evil good and good evil, who put darkness for light, 

and light for darkness, who put bitter for sweet and sweet for bitter."

Isaiah 5:20

 Rosary Mom wrote about today here

Which will lead you to what this "Mean Choice" is about Here
Other posts for this cause are here

I read a couple stories from the pro-abortion site--the link there 

can be found in the link above.

I cried through them and felt sick to my stomach.

One woman wrote about her painful story, of finding out at 35 weeks along

her precious baby girl had severe birth defects and may even be stillborn

and how the doctor offered her the "choice" of abortion or adoption.

She chose abortion.

And is happy to this day for having that "choice" to kill her baby.

Gratitude is her greatest feeling, when thinking about her abortion.

Gratitude

Gratitude.

Wow.  If that is what she thinks gratitude is, 

she would hate my Thankful posts. 

I think she is fooling herself.

 

Trying to understand why she chose abortion instead of adoption,

I understand she felt she was saving her baby, if she lived at all,

from a life that is not "perfect" in the world's eyes.

But

we know, God does not make mistakes.

We know that this baby's life would have been "perfect", because she

was perfectly created in the likeness and image of God.

She has a soul, and that soul lives forever.

The good out of that is the precious little girl that was killed by her mother

I believe is in heaven praying for her mother, 

she was martyred and baptized in her own blood.

In a way, it doesn't seem fair, that this mother is blessed 

with the graces of having a baby in heaven, does it?

But she needs it, and God is Merciful.

So

We must be merciful too.

We must pray for this woman 

We must pray for the many women like her 

Who will never know the beautiful love of the newborn baby

that she killed, the gaze and smile my good friend 

got to see and feel, when her baby son, Gabriel,

 was born with severe birth defects.  

The smile that was given to her, the mother

who fought the doctors to keep him safe in her womb, 

that fought for his life, as short as it was. 

He knew her love.  He felt it until God took him home, 

Where he is surrounded by LOVE Itself. 

They will never know if their baby could have been 

a beautiful baby like Dominic, who the doctors also 

wanted to abort.  Who the doctors, at first said his birth defect 

would not be a "quality life".  

Are you kidding me?  

If only we all could be loved like sweet Dominic.

This other woman's baby only felt the pain of being killed by her mother.  

After 35 weeks of being loved by that same mother. 

I keep thinking about what our priest talked about on Sunday.

40 years.

How significant 40 is in the Bible.

It usually marks the end of something

40 years in the desert

Rained for 40 days and nights

40 days in the desert

40 years

Hopefully the end is soon
We must pray, pray, pray
and be merciful.