Prayers, please, for Jamie & Baby

Hi, everyone. It's Margaret.

Jamie has been admitted to the hospital, where the doctors will be monitoring her and her little one overnight. She has asked me to post a prayer request on her behalf...and I know that we will be sending up countless bouquets that all goes well.

I know Jamie. You know Jamie. The poor dear will be missing the rest of her family like mad.

Our Lady of Guadalupe, pray for Jamie & her family.

Good St. Joseph, pray for Jamie & her family.

How the 20 Week Ultrasound Went

Look at that perfect little baby!

"God created man in his image;

 in the divine image he created him;

male and female he created them."

-Genesis 1:7

"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you..."

-Jeremiah 1:5

Yesterday at the Perinatologist's office, we brought along Mary Hannah and Ballerina Rosie.

I told them that if they wanted to go, they'd have to get up early, my appointment was at 8am

They got up at 5am.

I'm serious, they wanted to go so badly and didn't want to miss seeing the baby.

After seeing the baby for a long time, the technician checked everything,

she asked that daddy bring the girls to the waiting room, so we could talk

with the Perinatologist.

Tom said he knew something was up at that point.

Of course, I didn't.

(I thought it was different, but didn't think much of it)

Then, the technician told me

she suspected cleft lip.

My first thought was 

"Our baby is going to be ugly."

I've come to realize after a day to think about it and process all my thoughts,

that I would never think one of my children ugly.

Tom's first thought was,

"This child is so blessed to be born into a big family who will love him/her unconditionally."

He's right.

My second thought was,

"I haven't prayed as much with this baby."

To which my husband said,

"I've prayed more, I added a decade to my rosary each day for the baby."

We listened to the doctor as my head filled up with questions.

He explained it is the most common of birth defects

 and that if he had to choose a birth defect for his child, 

this would be it.

We do not and will not know if it is a cleft palate until the baby is out, 

this is disappointing for me, the not knowing.

I guess it lets us know what to pray for.

With a cleft lip, the baby will need surgery around 12 weeks to repair the lip.

With a cleft palate, the baby would also need surgery around a year and possibly 

more surgeries to correct it.

I'm already there at the hospital, for the surgeries, crying about it, worrying about the baby, 

telling my husband I will not leave the baby's side, I will stay at the hospital the whole time.

I'm worrying about things I don't need to worry about yet.

I need to trust and only worry about today.

I will not be able to nurse this baby.

The baby will not be able to attach correctly.

I guess they make special nipples for bottles, 

so I will pump.

I don't even own a bottle.

I don't know how to do all that.

I love nursing my babies.

It is one of my favorite things about having babies.

I think I've been mourning this and been so sad about this.

The kids are excited and Tom is too, he's never fed one of our babies.

He tried with Jedi once, but he wouldn't take it, so out went the bottles.

I worry about bonding with the baby without nursing, with all these kiddos, 

Will I ever get to feed my baby?

Yes.

I will, all the nighttime feedings.  

Oh, how I love feeding my babies in the middle of the night.

I am always so in love with each of my babies, 

I am already in love with this one.

I will have to get up and warm up a bottle, instead of immediately 

nursing the baby, but I can do it.

So,

This, according to the Perinatologist, was not genetic (we do not have this on either side)

but just a random thing.

I asked him if my type 1 diabetes could have caused this, 

He said a very confident "NO"  

My diabetes is under very tight control

(A1C 5.9, which is as normal as a non diabetic, which puts the risks down to nothing)

He said that diabetes causes things like heart defects, much more serious things.

I felt happy to hear this.

I know it is nothing I did.

I know that God made this baby this way,

He made him/her perfect, 

from the beginning of time, God knew this baby and He chose us for his/her parents.

God knows we will love this baby no matter what.

He trusts we can do it.

The baby is healthy, this is only cosmetic.

The Perinatologist also found fluid around the babies kidneys.

Normal level is .4, our baby is at .6

The doctor said he is not concerned with it, but needed to mention it 

and needs to follow up in 3 weeks to check if it has increased, decreased or stayed the same.

We know what we need to pray for.

Fluid to be gone around his/her kidneys

No cleft palate.

I called my good friend Sarah, in Fargo yesterday and cried and cried to her.

She said to pray for a complete and total healing, a complete miracle.

I feel like if I do that, I'm not accepting what God has given us.

She said do it anyway, but let God know I accept whatever His answer is.

So, I'm praying for a miracle.

Although, I know the world would view my baby as not perfect, God knows he/she is, 

and that is all that truly matters.

I want to thank you, readers & blog friends, for the emails and calls, 

you are wonderful, thank you for your concern, and mostly thank you for your prayers.

Today is my birthday!!

I'm 42!

This will end our birthdays for the year!!

(this is exciting after 4 in 2 weeks)