Thank you all so very much for your well wishes and blessings for my birthday. How very blessed am I?
I have to admit, I don't like the attention on me. A few of my friends asked me what I'd like to do and my response was "I'm too busy to have a birthday!" With school starting and trying to follow a schedule I just didn't have time. I want to thank especially Christine for surprising me at 8:55 a.m. with a full meal, fresh bread, fresh garden veggies (my favorite), brownies, candy (one for each of us!) a diet cherry coke, french vanilla coffee and lotion. (sorry if I forgot anything) She is so thoughtful and I really appreciate it. My good friend, Lisa, also made my day by insisting on coming in the afternoon (after our school schedule) to watch the kids so I could go to Adoration to be with our Lord on my birthday. (along with a beautiful rose and a nice gift) It was wonderful and made my day! I yearn to see Him and could have been there all day!
My good friend Sarah, sent a nice book and perpetual Masses for our whole family. My wonderful husband got me what I asked for, a copy of the movie "Bella"!! He also surprised me with a 1/2 dozen beautiful roses. (delivered in the morning) Even though I insisted he not do that! I'm a party pooper for myself! I even told the kids I did not want a cake. (hey I'm trying to lose weight and did not want to feel guilty on my birthday!) I told them it was because it is not healthy. I really try to not talk about being "fat" in front of the kids. I want them to see confidence and have confidence themselves no matter what size they are. Throughout the day I felt guilty about not wanting to feel guilty! So my super husband picked up a Dairy Queen ice cream cake and we all had ice cream cake and ate unhealthy for the sake of celebrating and the kids had fun and I didn't feel guilty (that much)!
I have to apologize to Melissa because she is a fairly new friend. Although we clicked the minute we met and have fast become great friends, we are still "new" friends and she asked what I'd like to do, as she loves to celebrate birthdays! (I do too, just not my own) I ended up venting my feelings about the coming day and I guess did not allow her to be good to me. SO I am sorry, in the future, if you want to do something to or for me, you just have to do it, I'll deal with it somehow, but I can't be asked, because I won't allow it to happen. I know, it's bad. Maybe it's a control thing. I have that "Martha" personality, wanting to be a "Mary" but it's hard. Please accept my apology.
It's kind of weird, I get kind of sad right before my birthday every year. I think I start thinking about where I'd like to be physically, spiritually and always fall short of that. Once the day comes, I'm fine, it goes away.
Thank you all and blessings to all of you, I couldn't help but pray for all my readers in Adoration yesterday, you just kept popping into my head!