My mind is racing a million miles an hour, it has been since August 1st.
That's when us homeschool moms start to torture ourselves with millions of thoughts.
Thoughts of all we have to get done by the end of the month, if not sooner.
Many of us like to start earlier, it adds to the torture.
Thoughts of curriculum, old and new. did we make the right choices for the right children?
Thoughts of organizing and cleaning out
Ambitious thoughts invisioning in our mind of the perfect first day.
You know, the day where everyone is happy to get up early and be on a schedule and do school work
instead of playing outside. Where they all love being told what to do and how to do it all morning.
(Can't you hear it now...."Do I have to do a time test?")
Where you bake wonderful homemade cookies because you have so much time and the kids are so very happy that you are their teacher.
I know, that will never happen.
At least not on the first day back to school.
SO, why do we torture ourselves with wanting to be perfect?
Why do we torture ourselves with trying to fit into a schedule,
after a summer of sleeping in and having no particular place to be at any particular time?
Why do we torture ourselves by thinking all the other homeschool moms have it all together and their
first days of school are going to be perfect?
We torture ourselves because we want what is best for our children.
That means praying, planning, preparing, organizing, overthinking everything.
God is helping us with our vocation.
It may not feel like it, but He is there.
He's already there on the first day, waiting for us to come to Him.
Whether you are the happy cookie mama or not.
He will meet you where you are, with all your ambitious dreams for your children and their school year.
For as imperfect as we are, we are made perfect for our children.
We are who God wants us to be at this moment for our children.
He knows we will continue to torture ourselves wanting and striving for the best we can
give our children.
Because He knows that is what makes us the best for our children.
God bless you and all your planning for the upcoming school year!
Don't forget to visit Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament.
He will take away the torturous feelings!