Last night in the chapel, I started thinking about my children and what we would do if something happened to me or my husband or both.
Do you ever think about that? Really every person I thought of is not me, therefore, were not good enough in some way. Not that I am the best, but I am the best for these children, my children.
What a gift we have in our motherhood. Only I understand Jedi and all his little things. Only I can comfort Ballerina Rosie or Mary after a nightmare. I am the only one who's hair Babycakes plays with and snuggles with in a special way. Only I know all the little things about each of them.
Picking someone, is something I suppose every person should do "just in case". What if no one is picked? Then what happens to my children? What if only I die, what will my husband do with 4 children? Who will watch them while he is working? I'd still want them homeschooled, how would that happen? So many questions! What a gift to enjoy the present. To enjoy this motherhood. I must be the best I can for these beautiful children, because I am what is best for these children.
I know, I know, don't think about these things! But sometimes, I can't help it. I need to tell myself, Trust in Him, Jesus, I trust in You, Jesus, I trust in You. And I trust that all will be in order if something like that were to happen.
Do you think this way sometimes?